What does it mean to be a Christian?

What does it mean to be a Christian?

All my life I've been told that being a follower of Christ is the most important mission of my existance. But it always comes from people who don't seem to believe the words of their own mouth. In the dark hours of the night, when it's just you and an unseen presence, what do you really believe? I believe my faith is my life, it's why I'm alive.... But I often doubt that I'm doing everything right. How do I know? Am I doing everything right when I feel good about what I'm doing, or is it the other times? The times like these...

When you cradle your soul but it melts through your fingers and shatters at His feet like thousands of glass rain-drops. And part of you wants to scream and cry because it hurts and you know He can see everything, but part of you is too in awe and filled with joy to even breathe. When He reaches down and picks up all those thousands of pieces and melds them back together. Something miraculous happens then, so small you don't know if you've even seen it, the image burns in the back your mind that one of those black peices of glass is now clear and bright. It hits you with a sense of awe, that one peice is now pure, but at the same time you mourn for it. There was a strange beauty about the dull black shine of those peices and you know what was removed for the sake of purity is something of this world's views lost forever, you can never be the same. In these times, when the pain and beauty is too great to comprehend, then everything feels right. And I think, maybe, that this is when I'm accomplishing my life's mission. I'm only one, on this one planet chosen from the great expanxe of the universe, but somehow my actions make all the difference somewhere.

Korin