*sigh* Shot through the heart and you're too late

Rather depressed right about now... Everything was so surreal, and then it said "the end." on the screen, just like that, with a period. It was like a double whammy of finality. I suddenly realized "Matt's gone. Its over, and Michael, Kim, and Josh aren't sticking around either". Suddenly all the looming responsibilty rained down at once, our leaders have been taken so its up to The League of Extraordinary Youth (aka Shepherding Team) to take up the empty places.
I can't really comprehend why the sponsors get to run from this. I could run as well, there are so many other churches I could easily go to, but my heart is here and I don't think God is done with this church yet. I guess it's just instinct to run from the things that hurt us the most, but whatever happened to "I can do all things through Christ who strenghtens me"? It'll be tough for a while, but we can make it without Matt, we just need to rely on Christ and rely on each other in this time of trial. The elders all seem to think that youth ministry is a numbers game. They keep trying to complete a sudoku puzzle using numbers like 11 and 27... sure it looks more impressive, but is it actually functioning?
Everyone, please pray that we have strength and wisdom during this time, and that the bonds we've created don't dissolve under pressure. I'll see you all at church.
Love,
Korin