first day of college...

So I'm not real sure how I feel about this whole venture yet, it still has the surreal aura of long-ago (okay, not that long ago) summer camps. It's not quite in perspective yet that I have to live in a room smaller than my one at home for several months with a perfect stranger. I can't wander the empty fields (for starters, there are none here) at midnight or later because the weekday curfew is 11pm. I won't wake up to Sugar and Spice baaa-ing for their mom (me), and there won't be the occasional puddle of cat vomit next to my bed. After 10 years in what could reasonably called "the countryside" I'm now smoldering in suburbia.
I hope I'll get used to all the changes, and that I can sleep when lacking my ever faithful purring Inky and Schroedinger. Classes don't start until Wednesday, so I'm currently focused and relearning the campus and meeting some people I can trust. More on the life of a disoriented college student later in the week.
Peace Out and Rock On,
Korin

*sigh* Shot through the heart and you're too late

Rather depressed right about now... Everything was so surreal, and then it said "the end." on the screen, just like that, with a period. It was like a double whammy of finality. I suddenly realized "Matt's gone. Its over, and Michael, Kim, and Josh aren't sticking around either". Suddenly all the looming responsibilty rained down at once, our leaders have been taken so its up to The League of Extraordinary Youth (aka Shepherding Team) to take up the empty places.
I can't really comprehend why the sponsors get to run from this. I could run as well, there are so many other churches I could easily go to, but my heart is here and I don't think God is done with this church yet. I guess it's just instinct to run from the things that hurt us the most, but whatever happened to "I can do all things through Christ who strenghtens me"? It'll be tough for a while, but we can make it without Matt, we just need to rely on Christ and rely on each other in this time of trial. The elders all seem to think that youth ministry is a numbers game. They keep trying to complete a sudoku puzzle using numbers like 11 and 27... sure it looks more impressive, but is it actually functioning?
Everyone, please pray that we have strength and wisdom during this time, and that the bonds we've created don't dissolve under pressure. I'll see you all at church.
Love,
Korin